lack of caffeine and doing what they say can't be done

I am tired. I have tried to stop drinking pop, but I don't like who I am without it. I need the caffeine. It helps me be me. It's an addiction, I know. But one I enjoy. So anyway, I haven't written in awhile. My life has been pretty much status quo. Maybe if I drink more pop, I'll have the energy to do something new. :)

I took my second biology test today. It was baaaad. I'll find out my grade in a few days. The last one I made a 68 on. Many people in the class did poorly. After he gave us those tests back, he said some of us might have a learning disability, but we had to deal with it. Today I saw him in the hallway after class, we were talking and I said, "Maybe I do have a learning disability." He said, "Maybe you do." hahaha
We'll see what I made on it.

I am not wavering in my decision to divorce, but I am tired. It's exhausting living with someone you don't really like, or respect, who doesn't like or respect you. Living a facade is debilitating. I long for the days when I have peace in my home. I know no matter who lives in a house, things aren't always going to be great. But I have needs(lots of needs).

I read a blog today about moves from porn you should never try. I want to defy those rules. Well, not all of them, but some. As I read them, I thought, no wait, that's possible. That's exciting. I actually like that.

I am still moving on, just very s-l-o-w-l-y.